Thursday, July 05, 2007

a little more regular

Okay, now that I got that wacky post out of my system, I am trying to beat my flyaway brain and post something tangible. Despite the heavy haze, I have a feeling I'm going to need to remember this period of time. It seems significant.

So "Hair" opened and "Hair" closed. Without a doubt the most difficult mounting of a show I've ever experienced, because of the scale, and because for the first time ever, really, the buck stopped here. So every major problem came down to me. Which was incredible, and I learned so much so fast, which contributed heavily to my shellshockyness right now. But before you get the idea that I'm bitching, I had a LOT of help. My nearest and dearest were all sewing and shopping and sorting and light hanging and fuckin' a did that show take a village. It took our village. And we got it done.

We got it so done, people we didn't even know came back all three nights. Tom O'Horgan came and saw the show, and Jim came three times. Even though there were of course parts that could have used some polish, I never EVER expected the quality level of our show to be so high. Thursday night, the band was in such shambles that our limited audience left, and then I left at the end of the first act because I was so appalled and upset. That night Sessoms, Kingston and Man went for food after we'd shut NP down, and I passed out in Man's lap, right in the booth. I listened a little as they talked about how to fix it. I was thinking about pulling the plug.

And then wham bam. Awoke in the morning, and Man let me flip the fuck out, and sit on my couch paralyzed and crying and sure we were going to be a tremendous failure. Then we headed to the theatre and got down to business. Like ya do. Throw a little tantrum, then realize that a lot of people are there not only counting on you, but HELPING you, and you buckle down, fire the bassist, and call a goddamn piano tuner. And then run around and paint Apache, and realize that everyone pretty much fuckin' rocks, and when curtain time comes, the audience overflows into the aisle, sitting on the floor.

The Real Theatre Company is rolling. We even got our first review:

"And as for HAIR, I saw this weekend long non-Equity revival at the
Neighborhood Playhouse on 54th Street, where I had never been before.
The cast was made up primarily of Neighborhood Playhouse students and
alumni. Since they did not cut a single number from the score - they
even did "Dead End" and "The Bed" - it ran three hours. Luckily, it
was a very good production. And the more I think about it, it was
eerily authentic. Why? Because HAIR is not meant to be a polished
show. It's supposed to be a happening, an Off-Off-Broadway piece of
alternative theater, though once on Broadway. Here was a production in
a small intimate space, where most of the cast was not vocally
outstanding, but totally committed physically and dramatically. It is
this kind of authenticity that professional concert productions of
HAIR - Actors Fund, Encores - all lack."

-Matt Windman AM NY

Yay!

s-e-x, y-o-u, wooooow

Hairache and Hair triumph leads to skitz brain, tres similar to effects of long term acid use. Think in little fragments or long drawn out conversations. Good for reading, wretched for writing. Email skills even have deteriorated.

Roommate purchases Harry Potter tickets. Just saw Transformers. First two movies I have/will have seen since March. My life and directorial experiences are moving along at such a rapid pace, I feel like I'm on a pull string attached to a Kawasaki goin full tilt on a superhighway. Can no longer do math. Amazing shows. Amazing Blackfoot Tunkashila.

Need to eat healthier. Show diet consists of coffee and everything purchasable within one block radius of Playhouse, i.e. bagels, sandwiches, sushi, and Starfucks.

Last night of the show, ran about trying to dispose of mass quantities of condoms donated to our company by the city. Three cases, three thousand units, plus a thousand little lube packets. I filled Soulflower's entire backpack, plus her boyfriend's (Flapjack), and gave bags to Apache (aka Cali) & Desert Dawn. How many pounds of condoms and glitter and come to the Be-In flyers did we chuck? Did Mr. B really ask us to come back anytime? Is this really my life? Am I really being pitched and pulled and have I really put myself here?

Indeed I have.

I pulled the Knight of Cups yesterday, when I asked my Tarot deck the Tarot-question equivalent of "What the fuck, yo?"
A proposition in the field of art.
Well what do I do about that?
The Chariot.
Ride out the storm. Get ready to be pulled in many directions. Steer hard, stay steady, strong, and success is guaranteed.

So I have my hands on the reins. I'm reading a lot. I am lighting some candles. I am trying to return to my body and my normal mind, so doing things like getting an eye exam this morning helped. But I dunno, kids. Life has kinda grabbed me full force, so I think I gotta just go with it.

Trippily yours,
Maggie